I started this blog back in 2010, when I decided to pursue my lifelong dream of being a writer. My goal back then was to be published or produced by the time I was 50: I turned 40 in 2009 and realised that I wasn’t getting any younger. I’ve only got 10 months left, so I don’t know that I’m going to achieve the goal, but I’m pleased to say I’m starting my tenth year of writing more productive and more focused than I have been for a long time.
I’ve decided to revive this blog to help me maintain discipline about my writing: I’m turning you all into my accountability buddies. Rather than publishing my fiction here, as I did in the beginning, mostly I’ll be talking about the process, as I’m working on long form projects. I will occasionally share from my works-in-progress, and I’ll also be looking for beta-readers occasionally. I’d love your continued support.
If you’ve followed me for awhile (thank you loyal reader!) you’ll know I’ve made a few attempts to get back on track, but if I’m honest, I avoided writing a lot of the time. In hindsight, my reluctance to write was a symptom of burnout. The story that would loop in my head was that there was no point starting because it would take years of effort and I would never earn any money even if it did get published or produced and no one is interested in what I have to say anyway (poor me, waah). I needed an excuse to rest because I was shit at taking care of myself and didn’t even acknowledge how unwell I was, physically and mentally.
Breast cancer has, naturally, forced a whole lot of change on me. With the bulk of my treatment completed in 2016, I said at the start of 2017 that it was my year of recovery, and it turned out I didn’t have much say in the matter. I was forced to slow down. It has really taught me how much energy everything takes: being stressed consumes energy, healing consumes energy, being around people consumes energy. It also taught me that a lot of the time I couldn’t write because I’d run the tank dry.
I now understand the need to look after myself, and I’m trying to make that my first priority. As a result, I’m really feeling like myself again now, and my drive to write has returned with it. I’m back to getting pleasure from the process of writing: I want to share that pleasure, and acknowledge the many people who are helping me grow and develop as a writer. I’ll be posting here at least weekly, and I’d love you to follow my progress along the way, and hearing your thoughts and experiences.